Gotta start somewhere!

    I've always felt lost, incomplete, very insecure & not my true self for as long as I can remember.  But most importantly always thought that what others had or wanted was the same things that I had to have or need instead of listening to myself to know what it was that I really wanted.  Once you've been away from your true self for so long you loose sight of who you truly are because you lived up to everyone else's expectations instead of your own. 
    With that being sad,  I have recently picked up meditation and Tarot readings, thanks to a dear friend of mine, to help me get my mind, body, and soul back on track to the right path I should be on in this one life of mine that I've been blessed with.  It's amazing how easy it is to ignore our inner voices, our gut feeling, and the signs around us that our spiritual guides provide us to keep us on the right track. With meditating and asking the cards what I seek answers for I can find myself & clear all the negative and wasted thoughts out of my head and be my true self once again. 
    Last Thursday I met my Spiritual guide, my was she beautiful.  Soft pale skin, long dark hair, and ever so inviting.  When approaching her she didn't speak but she didn't have to, my body tingled and I felt completely relaxed and at peace with this moment in time.  She then handed me a box, gift if you may, and in that box was a beautiful Heart.  Doesn't sound like much until you think about the true meaning of a heart and what they symbolize.  This is a symbol for Love but it's also so much more than that, it's Joy, affection, a symbol for Truth, courage to be yourself & love what you love, and also conscience but also passion. I've always been drawn to hearts for their meanings but never really understood it.  I've always surrounded myself by hearts and even had my 1st tattoo be a heart, didn't know why I wanted it... Just wanted it.  But now that I've opened up to this whole new journey is makes sense.  My guides were trying to pull me in the right direction but me being stubborn I ignored all signs & my gut.  I've always had a pull towards my Zodiac sign, Cancer, a huge pull & fascination in the Moon and always at peace when I'm outside soaking up the Sun's rays and one with mother nature & this is all helping me understand WHY I've had the attraction to those things. 
   I'm not a writer, as you can tell, nor am I anything more than just a simple country girl starting this amazing journey with so much more to learn & this blog is to help me with that and document my journey to see how far I come in my time.  So it back & enjoy the show :)