Day 3•

    This morning I put all cards in the middle of my table & shuffled which gave me a jumper card. I put it aside and continued to pick.... 

The Hermit 

{Jumper card}

    This is a time for self-reflection/soul searching. One must look forward and what they can see & not reflect on the past. Our guides can't speak to us if we have a clouded mind & are distracted on everyday life. 

    My jumper was reversed which means; Keeping busy is ones way of denial. You've been putting off giving yourself the solitude you need to sort your life & the issues you are confronted with. 

    Eight of Pentacles

 {picked card}

    Productive work, skill in craft/business, learning through doing, dedication. 
This card suggests developing & applying your skills in a productive manner. You've tried various means of making your life & now you are finalizing how you want to use your personal resources to fulfill your needs & expand.

    Your sureness of purpose is a sure sign of success. You will be rewarded by increased income, big opportunities, and respect.

•This yard yelled PHOTOGRAPHY. Taught myself over time by doing & took great joy and pride in my work. I've been wanting to get back into it for years now. Guess it's time!
•My ? For the cards this morning was "what can I learn from my past"

Day 2•

The Magician 

    This card represent our self creativity, will power, self confidence, determination, & focus. 
The Magician signifies new beginnings & new choices. It indicates someone who is willing & able to manipulate the situation to achieve the desired ends. It suggests leadership potential, ambition, and new relationships coming into begin. The tools for whatever we desire are already at hand, as is the knowledge for using them correctly. 

    My question this morning, "What am I ignoring?" This to me screams Stephen. He's willing to do what it takes no matter what to make sure my boys are very happy and well taken care of. We have big things coming shortly and I wouldn't want anyone else by my side through our journey of life. He reminds me that I have what it takes to get through this and we will together. 

Day 1•

Five of Pentacles

    This reflects a challenging time which you may feel isolated and left out in the "cold". It's a time where one needs to come to terms with the hardship they may be facing and to be responsible for their own actions. 

    While picking this card for myself today I asked "What do I most need to know about today" well guys this couldn't of been a more perfect card for today. With the situation and hardship of trying to get back in touch with my boys and the struggles we faced over the weekend I'm very pleased with my first day drawing with my 1st & new deck as it hit my feelings and thoughts right on the tip of the nail. I need to rediscover hope and remember that even though money will be very tight for awhile at the end everything that's meant to be will be and we will come out on top! 

This is the Pualina Cassidy Tarot Deck. 

LOVE THEM!

My 1st Reading

Now that you know why I've started my journey I must share my 1st reading.

    The Reading was done by S.Marie @ Intuit Messages.
It was such a beautiful reading and brought tears to my eyes it touched me so dearly. I actually have it printed and hanging on my wall to remind me daily why I've started this new journey for myself & my loved ones.
    My question for the cards & the divine was "What should I know most about the situation with my 2 children?"  Which anyone who knows me knows that this is a SUPER sensitive subject that instantly brings me to tears. Well the outcome was beyond touching...

Card 1 – The Situation

Four of Coins

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This card in the reading represents the situation in your question.

The coins in this card represent what you hold dear. You want to protect it at all costs. Though on the 

outside you appear not to be shaken, your eyes say something different. You know this is what has to be 

but the pain is rather deep. It is this deep rooted pain that is giving you such strength. By making sound 

*I keep hearing repeatedly – “I will protect what is mine, I will protect what is mine” *

choices you will protect what is your while bringing balance to your situation.

Card 2 – Steps to be done

The Star

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The Star represents a deeper knowing. This is your intuition. Trust the process and trust that you do indeed have what you need to move ahead. You will see the moment happen before your very eyes. The moment when it all clicks and all is in place. You will see how thing will seem to just simply change overnight. Trust this change and trust yourself. You have the answers, you really 

do KNOW.

Card 3 – The possible outcome

Eight of Coins

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What you put in you will receive. All the work and emotional process that has brought you to 

this point will bring the love and fulfillment you have been working so hard for. Keep the 

inner fire burning for it is what will bring what you have been seeking. Remember it is a 

cycle and as you near the end of this there is another that awaits. What you have learned and 

endured thus far will only prepare you for what is next.

Messages from your Animal Spirit Guides:

The Cat

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In other words, you don’t need others to tell you what is best for you. You know what you need to do and 

it’s time to listen and trust yourself.

    This reading of hers touched me in ways that I didn't even know could happen & at that moment I knew I was doing the right thing with everything, Including this journey.  I will never be able to thank her enough for this.  PLEASE check out her Website if you have any questions you'd like answered.  :) 

Gotta start somewhere!

    I've always felt lost, incomplete, very insecure & not my true self for as long as I can remember.  But most importantly always thought that what others had or wanted was the same things that I had to have or need instead of listening to myself to know what it was that I really wanted.  Once you've been away from your true self for so long you loose sight of who you truly are because you lived up to everyone else's expectations instead of your own. 
    With that being sad,  I have recently picked up meditation and Tarot readings, thanks to a dear friend of mine, to help me get my mind, body, and soul back on track to the right path I should be on in this one life of mine that I've been blessed with.  It's amazing how easy it is to ignore our inner voices, our gut feeling, and the signs around us that our spiritual guides provide us to keep us on the right track. With meditating and asking the cards what I seek answers for I can find myself & clear all the negative and wasted thoughts out of my head and be my true self once again. 
    Last Thursday I met my Spiritual guide, my was she beautiful.  Soft pale skin, long dark hair, and ever so inviting.  When approaching her she didn't speak but she didn't have to, my body tingled and I felt completely relaxed and at peace with this moment in time.  She then handed me a box, gift if you may, and in that box was a beautiful Heart.  Doesn't sound like much until you think about the true meaning of a heart and what they symbolize.  This is a symbol for Love but it's also so much more than that, it's Joy, affection, a symbol for Truth, courage to be yourself & love what you love, and also conscience but also passion. I've always been drawn to hearts for their meanings but never really understood it.  I've always surrounded myself by hearts and even had my 1st tattoo be a heart, didn't know why I wanted it... Just wanted it.  But now that I've opened up to this whole new journey is makes sense.  My guides were trying to pull me in the right direction but me being stubborn I ignored all signs & my gut.  I've always had a pull towards my Zodiac sign, Cancer, a huge pull & fascination in the Moon and always at peace when I'm outside soaking up the Sun's rays and one with mother nature & this is all helping me understand WHY I've had the attraction to those things. 
   I'm not a writer, as you can tell, nor am I anything more than just a simple country girl starting this amazing journey with so much more to learn & this blog is to help me with that and document my journey to see how far I come in my time.  So it back & enjoy the show :)